i want you next to me always. i want to wake up with you and we can make coffee or tea and sit and read the paper while we watch the spring birds flit past our kitchen window. i want to walk with you between the tallest trees or on the whitest sand beaches and we’ll feel the waves wash our toes and the sun kisses our noses as tenderly as we kiss each other. i want to laugh with you when it’s some time between night and day and we don’t know if we should close our eyes or just keep smiling until the morning comes. i want people to see us and say look how perfect they are, look how their pieces fit together just so, see how they are meant for no one else. i want your whispers against my neck and i want your hands. i want them everywhere. i want to fall asleep in the cradle of your arms and feel your weight beside me even when i dream. i want you yesterday and tomorrow. i want you here. i want you always.
then i remember he’s a gross loser who spent more time playing video games and drooling over hot girls (real and fictional) than he did showing me affection. what a turd.
then i also remember i’m seeing a fantastic man who makes me happy and is a good kisser and wants to take me hiking and hopefully make out a little.
this is me venting a little. my apologies.